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Okay, i give up. This time, yes, I have PHILOPHOBIA and I am PHILOPHOBIC. Somehow i thought i can just move on and go on with my life like a normal teenage girl. I can't. Ever since Lazaroo, i've been in and out of love for God knows how many times. Like they said, you need two hands to clap, right? Looks like i'm the one whose doing all the clapping for the past year, and i'm tired of it. How the hell am i suppose to know if he's the one for me? How can i tell? Yes, i mellowed down like sh*t. I don't club as much as last time. I don't drink acoholic drinks as much as last time till i get drunk like a fool. My family, i got a happy one though. Kite tak kacau orang, orang tak kacau kite. I don't know la. Since guys love to hurt me so much, giving me false hope, wrong signs and all, know what, FUCK THEM BOYS. I don't need them, they'll just gonna hurt me more and more.I can't believe that i'm still emotional about this shit. Yeah, you people might think that one day, i'm in love, another day, i'm not. All i'm tryna say is that, "SAMPAI AKU NAK BERTEPUK SEBELAH TANGAN SAJE?"


Anyway, i've been sick this pass few days. Since Wednesday morning till now, my fever went up and down. My running nose will jog and then race again. I'm tired. I'm really² tired tau. I need a break again, and 2 days of medical cert is NOT enough. I'm not eating my medicine properly lah. Why? Beacause i can't be bothered. I just wanna sleep away and forget about reality. I'm starting to hate school, the kids, the classmates. I know i just hafta ignore them beetches but they're f*cking rude. GOD~! Can i hate my life now? No, i still can't. I hafta love my life. Blah~blah~blah~!


Oh before i forgot, Thank you Faiqah for going out with me on Saturday,2nd May '09. Hehe. Love you darl. Thanks for the treat at Apolo restaurant in Little India. And don't forget to upload the photos okay. Tagged muke aku yang lawa² saje. Hehh. And thanks for the great night Fad,Ayis,Izhan and Zie. :] Love you guys.

oh,
Happy Birthday to Armelia Wahab, Jason Lim and Amalina Hj. Ramlee. :D

And and and, i'm addicted to Sheikh Haikel's Witulah, i know it's old. But its nice. =) till my next post, suck 'em balls.

*i don't need anyone.