i can't stop crying and being sad. I miss being a happy kid. Why do have to be like this? Why did i end up like this? Is it because of the company i chose to be friend with, or my life is written like this? I'm tired of people judging me, assuming bad stuffs about me. I know my physical features are not so outstanding but i know inside me, i'm way better than those barbie dolls out there that can't live without make-up. Yes, i may seem happy go lucky but you beetches doesn't know whats going on with my life. Yes, my family is not complete because my mom left us two years ago on 09 July 2006. Of course i'm sad, but Allah loves her more than i do. And she will always be in my heart no matter what happens to me, period. In any case, jerks out there are always hurting me and making breakdown for them. I know my tears are not worth it, if its for them i'm crying but i can't help it. I let my emotions control me everytime. Hopes are always dangling on strings. Then it will just from cloud nine, i'll drop back to earth. Its only been 2 freaking months, and two kids broke my heart just like that. Maybe, i'm not that lucky and found jerks like 'em. Its okay, there are alot of sand in the sand pit. (: Well, after i picked up the broken pieces of my heart, i'm gonna stay happy, be free, and enjoy life as much as possible. I took up a cca in my school so i'll be very very very busy. I can't wait. (: I shall not let another son of a fucking bitch ruin my heart anymore. I wanna do my best in school and in my cca, who knows i might be singapore's under-21 floorball player. Zazzz! Angan-angan kencang kacang. Im gonna stop here for now. Till my next post, suck 'em balls. :D*you don't deserve to have anyone, period.
